>> Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Like last week I was having a conversation with a friend, the conversation was going well until I felt the uncontrollable urge to ask him a question. Being that this friend is gay he must know all things gay related. I am after all an expert on all things woman, mother, wife....NOT. True to form I blast the question and as the words where spilling from my mouth I was kicking myself in the butt.
Me: I've got a questions for ya, before I was married I dated like five different guys that are now gay. What is with me that I attracted men that where confused sexually? Do you think its cause I'm like a Tom boy or something?
Friend: I don't know, I think its just chance, its not like you can turn someone gay or all gay men hide in the closet with the same kind of girl.
Yup, I felt like a dumb ass? I don’t know why I couldn't stop myself from asking him this burning question, I have no excuse. Like he’s going to know what my issues where that I went for men that where emotionally unavailable. Poor guy, lucky he has a good sense of humor, but now he’ll never let me live that one down.
Maybe, just maybe, I just wanted him to tell me that I'm so fricking hot that any man, gay or straight, would want to be with me. That's got to be it, right? Right...RIGHT!
Let the world know you as you are, not as you think you should be, because sooner or later, if you are posing, you will forget the pose, and then where are you? ~Fanny Brice